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Tired and bored ..

yayaya - a girl who excels in sleeping . - yayaya

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brokenHEART ;
4:08 AM

~~Jap~~

毎日Iはあなたについて考える。 考えること私について考える。 この感じはであるもの知ってはいけない。 それはとても奇妙に感じる。1日まで私はもう一人の女の子との会った。 私は私忘れられている知っている。 または多分
、私はちょうど他人である。 少なくとも私の友人である場合もあるか。 多分それは非常に困難であるが、私は実際に望む。 毎日Iつ必ず… 願い私の想像である。 ちょうど甘美な夢があるが、私は実際に目覚めたくない。
従って私は現実に直面する必要がない… 私が歌を聞くとき、私はあなたについて考える。 特にラブソング。 私が心で持っている最初の人である。 私はちょうど私が少なくとも知り合いになることができることを望む。


Everyday I thinks of you. Thinking will you ever think of me. Don't know what is this feeling. It feels so strange.
Until one day I saw you with another girl. I know you forgotten me. Or maybe , I'm just a stranger. Can you at
least be my friend? Maybe that'll be very difficult but I really wish.. I everyday , everytime... Wish you're my
fantasy. Although is just a sweet dream , I really don't wish to wake up. So I won't have to face reality... When
I listen to songs , I think of you. Especially love songs. You're the first person I have in mind. I just wish I
could at least get to know you..

brokenHEART ;
11:57 PM

Should I ? Or not?

SHOULD I KEEP HIMM IN MY HEART OR TAK IT AS A DREAMM? HAIZ!!!!!!! I wonder.. EEE...!!! think of luvvin someones again.. OMFG!!!! ==..


{AUDI}{THING}
1) LYDIA MEII , NVR TELL ME SHE MARRY!!! I SO SADD!!!!
2) SOMEONE CALL ME DAR , I GO DIE!!!!
3) I WANN A BF , LOLX JKJK!!!
4) MY HP GONE AGAIN!!!!
5) II FEeLs LIKE SLPING AGAIN!!111!!!
6) I WANN CHANGE NAme TO ... DreaMs_Fi0n...!!!!
7) SHLD II FIND A BF? LOLX... WAD A LAME QUESTION..
8) II GO REJECT OTHERS COUPLE REQUEST LEHS!!! OMG..
9) TAT GUY CANT STOP STICKIN TO ME , LUCKY II PRETEND II GOT BF BUT DE BOY SO BADD..
10) TAK IT AS I LUV NO ONE.... ><

BYEZ ALL... IM SO DAMNN SADD!!! hehes jkjk... -becuz no bf LOLX!!! JKJK!!!!-

brokenHEART ;
1:46 PM

My fren...changed...his promise..or not...promise to me..

well , ii went to games everyday de same old thing.. then ii check my **... o0 so many unknowns... Then ii saw one thing disappeared.. my fren's **** then ii go check de whole * again... OMGG?

He said he wont change de **** but he changed.. I WONDER WAD HE SAID TAT TIME. II WONT CHANGE TAT **** DE! hahax!
SO FAKE! FAKEFAKEFAKEFAKEFAKE!...I HATE................................................FAKERS...LAMERS...****ERS.....******ERS!...I HATE..THEM!

I wont bother anymore. I WONT BOTHER HIM ANYMORE.

brokenHEART ;
9:45 PM

Whoa? Did that happen or wad?

I was being forced to go out with my mum to tiong today... I of course try to hold de time to late late... BUT...FAILED!!!.... She just ask me , : " so where should we go first? Fairprice?" I said , : "whatever." Well I follow her to fairprice... then we buy things to eat...While we were queueing... My mum ask me go popular bookstore wait fer her... Well , Follow her ways then... I walk walk walk... see so many people...even my primary school mates!... But I never tok to them. I walk into de bookstore...WOOW STORYBOOKS MOREMOREMORE!! then ii run to my fave book titles...search fer meg cabot books... Well I like her books though =^^= Then ii brought one manga book fer drawing...My brother drew on my "Men" title manga...zzz So ii buy " Girls " Then I look around...see my mum arrive...she wave to me and say... " I go find books fer ur brother..You go walk around or help me search." I search fer awhile then ii went round de bookstore , looking at people...hahax ii boring rite? Then I walk to de riddles section , near de pre school books... I read then ii saw some upper sec guys walking near there. Then ii walk away.. I walk to de pens section. They walk here too , I dont bother and juz try out some pens. Then ii heard... " You think she from which sec? Want to ask her? Want a not?" then ii think dey toking about others so ii walk to compass section...near notebooks there... Then ii look around , see which section I want to walk to... Then ii saw de guys looking at me...I thought dey ki siaoz so ii walk to my mum dere... My mum was at pre school dere... Then one guy from de group walk out , and said quite loudly , " Is that her mother???" I juz took one jokes book and read , dont bother them... Then other guys from de group went to de other side... so near!! Then dey look at me , then dey go tak other books and come closer. I told my mum say " mum lets go... Niid to fetch bro time.." She say , " okay , you think this maths book all right? " I was like... walao diaoz... Then we walk to de counter... After Waiting... mum say " put this recipe inside de bag , ltr de thing beepbeep.. " Then de guy from de group again say so loud , " bebebbebebebbeep! " my mum say " oh my... scared me... " we giggle then We walk away... Juz now ii turn back at them , ii saw them poking de heads out. Hahax I think dey juz having fun , making fun of me kekes ~ kkz byez

DreaMiiexx Fion.<3

brokenHEART ;
3:15 PM

Songs Lyrics ( taken some out fer my post)

If I could fall Into the sky, do you think time would pass me by ?
It's always times like these , when I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me. Cause every thing's so wrong and I don't belong living in your precious memories.
And I..I don't want to let you know. I..I drown in your memory. I..I don't want to let this go. I..I don't...Want! Staring blankly ahead just making my way through the crowd.. And I still need you...and I still miss you...
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I walked into the door again. Well, if you ask that's what I'll say and it's not your business anyway. I guess I'd like to be alone , with nothing broken, nothing thrown.
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I once wish to die...because of my friends , family.. I also don't know why...Just that strange feeling...I just feels like I'm going to follow this feeling... It controls my whole body!.. I cried , angry suddenly.. Maybe I really think this world too negative... My so-called-classmates all keep have real , accompany them friends... Well , I don't... maybe that's why I'm so sad? Don't know..Maybe is..or not..I wish for a..friend.. who can accompany me whenever I need help or sad...A friend who I can trust..confide my problems to... A friend who always close to me..A real life friend , a true friend...I just want that...Only that I wish in my school life... I got family problems... not parents quarrel but is children quarrel/forbid what the parents said... that's me...I'm a cant-be-good daughter.Like my dad... bad temper.. But he clever but he got a daughter who is stupid , lazy , think of not important things!.. My mum.. always lecture me by saying like ,"See your friend! ( BAOYI NERD) see...so clever! Score so well! Every month pass all subjects! you? fail all or some?! How can you fight with your cousins even you can't win your friends!"... thats...why...I..want...to...leave...this...stressful.., pro world... Well My friends are nerds...I'm a noob ! They pros I noob... Fact.. I'm a failure! A ... bad-to-worse failure! Other failures , bad to good...I is bad to worse! How can I ever compete with anyone...when I am such a stupid , idiot ...person...I want to be alone...forever...when I'm dead...

( . Crying Fion . )

brokenHEART ;
3:38 PM

Saw him today...

Saw him everyday though but today is abit strange. He is a fren from my pri schh... And ii always play with him till pri 5 or 6 we nvr tok. My frenz and ii always call him lao fu zi... becuz his hairstyle is very dull... He also used to be one of my CCA member. Even de same sect. He always say funny things to make de people laugh and often kana scoldin ==... When ii gt into my sec schh... I was walking alone to some parts of de schh. Suddenly ii saw someone very famillar. I seee more properly... And ii saw him. I feel happy and sianz to see him though. He older me one yr old. I walk past him , nvr look at him of course , like everytime ii walk past people. This month keep raining... so ii often wait fer my mumm at de schh gate. dere gt shelter. And many people always at dere waiting for cabs , frenz , parents and walk home alone. Today , 1.35pm+ also raining. SAME OLD THING. Me wait outside de gate fer my mumm , called my mum , when she say she coming by de cab , ii feel happy. Its was raining heavily and if she bring umbrella here , we both will be drenched. While waitin , ii saw frenz , strangers , seniors , and ii dun wish to see de people also here. Tats when ii feel very tired waitin and ii saw him. He look at my direction and ii juz so silly! I go turn my head to de wall.== When ii turn back to de direction , he is gone. I was so relifed but ii suddenly saw him beside me. I was shocked (nvr show larx..) He seems to wanna tok somethin but he was pulled away by his frenz So ii dun bother. When ii think tat ii saw my fren , he came back again When ii saw tat , ii run to alot of people waitin place. In a nick of time , my mum arrive. So happy. I faster run to de cab with raindrops and sweat on my face.When ii was sitting on de cap ii turn to him , ii saw him waving at me , ii juz smile and turn back to me seat . I know tmr he will forget him. I THINK. But ii still happy to saw my old seniors and frenz in pri sch nnw in sec sch.!

brokenHEART ;
4:20 PM

Bad-Gd-Bad-Gd

Heart so pain... So damn pain... why did my fren ask this stupid but very impt question to me.... she ask "( lalala ) ur stead arx? " although sounds nt impt but ii really wish ii can say yes... but ii say no. OF COURSE he nt my stead!!! he gt stead lerx , gf!!! LOVER !!! II CANT LIKE MARX!!! LOVE THEN WORSE LARX!!! but... ii think ii hav like hiim more then love... at first we are...
LOGGERHEADS - Classmates - Schmates - then at sec schh we tok abit... so happy tat day o0 but when ii remember tat... he gt stead... ii forgt abt it tat day... think as is a sweet dream , and forget about it... tats gd... hw ii wish ii now go bang my head , go mental hosp , rest dere... or maybe juz die == ii wish ii can find someone tat can ... zzz wont ever be true XD!!! why she ask == nw ii wish to look at his photos... ii gt de class photo with them!!! SO DAMN CUTE LEHS EVERYONE!!!

brokenHEART ;
6:41 PM

Ouch ==... I acturally HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO WRITE but....... ii dun know how to say... start from where... Nvm juz say todayz... As usual , go schh , rainin heavily today... everyone throw their umbrellas to de side of our classroom... People with wet socks and shoes , all tak it out... ( SMELLY DUH) but de smell gone quite a long while... becuz we treat it as our 2nd HOME...lalala.... Geo , Maths , Recess , Bio , History then chinese... At chinese class , our cher put us into groups... Its WAS fun. My frenz all so funny , ii dun dare laugh with them though , ii also dun know why... maybe ii nt tat ... wadeva... while waitin fer our cher to tok finish... I heard one thing very clearly... and my heart feels like shaken.. One girl , shout out loud , as usual... " You like .......(secret) ?! " ii tried to turn around but ii afraid maybe dey will gossip or wadeva... but my heart seems to be... OUCH?! like goin to be full dead? ( already half dead ) even now writin ... ii also feel pain... then ii try to hit my chest... gently.. but de pain inside hurts then de outside... its was like... world goin to end?... so sad , pain , heartbroken... AND in audi , my frenz still ==... nvm... byez ii go off first lerx ~

Signin Off ,
DreaMiiexx Fion.<3

brokenHEART ;
11:07 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

ouch?

These few dayz... my heart seems to sink deep down to de sea... Dun kn0w why sia... is like drown.. nobody bother... I try my only way to relax is listen musixx... but it cant cure... sometimes de matter jump to my mind... then ii was like... tears in my eyes... then ii really dun kn0w wad happen lerx... is so... my heart so pain... ( nt heart attack..) well... people ask me , ii fell in luv b4? ii dun kn0w hw to reply.. can only say.. nvr tried b4 ^^... My fren is nt even in luv ==... keep see hunks then fell in luv... tats suxx... me .. dun feel like tat leh.. and idiotic frenz will pull me with boys tgt... but ii juz walk away , dun even bother... becuz my heart gt someone occupied de... ii juz be frenz with people XD... ii hab a weak health XD... "often" sick... TT... tats suxx too... Me nvr seems to bother boys... tat time ii dream of one person , a old fren... well when ii go pri 4 nvr see him liao... he is sleepy king == ... strange rite XD? ii also like to slp . hehex piggiexx XD... so funny de ==...haiz , ii go ... to work liao...(HOMEWORK nt GO WORK) okiexx! g2g byez !

Signing Off ,
DreaMiiexx Fion.<3

brokenHEART ;
1:06 PM